Why - Fallen Oceans

[00:15.286]Depression run inside of me
[00:17.100]My constant fear and anxiety
[00:18.966]I cannot pinpoint the reasons
[00:20.752]Why I dont feel like part of society
[00:23.114]And I could try to take a look inside to figure why
[00:25.775]I feel so hurt, why I lack self worth, why my lifes
[00:27.921]been pain since the day of my birth
[00:29.371]And I still feel worse when the pain return
[00:31.446]Too many things in my mind I can't figure out
[00:33.125]All the times you would yell cuss each other out
[00:35.149]You don't care about the demons in my mind
[00:36.582]Cuz you had your own demons in you all this time
[00:38.639]And you never asked why my b *tches know smiles
[00:40.641]Why I ran for miles
[00:41.528]Watching my style
[00:42.542]Why I look so sad
[00:43.473]Why I get so mad
[00:44.512]Why I want it all to end I don't make pretend
[00:47.074]Lost my cousin to the drugs, he was 15
[00:48.819]But all the drugs the cool kids mixing
[00:50.679]I don't care about my friends
[00:51.945]Cuz the main thing
[00:52.768]Is that I do the right thing
[00:53.699]Keep my name clean
[00:54.817]And keep my mind clean
[00:55.634]Make peace with my damn anxiety
[00:57.711]No way I make it back to sobriety
[00:59.625]Cuz all the drugs will heal the pain inside of me
[01:02.656]I'm breaking down (breaking down)
[01:06.491]Can't figure out (can't figure out)
[01:11.701]Can't take away the pain
[01:15.803]I'm borderline insane
[01:23.427]l'm borderline insane
[01:31.376]l'm borderline insane
[01:33.677]I can never focus on the sh*t that works
[01:35.280]If you give me 50 dollars for my verse
[01:36.690]l'll make it work
[01:37.373]But I'll write a f* cking lie
[01:38.224]Cuz the truth is all that hurts
[01:39.172]I don't think its a surpise
[01:40.131]All my problems are the worst
[01:41.405]Triple seven on my wrist
[01:42.153]But it dont mean jack sh*t
[01:43.166]Number of the angel, I f* ckin thought they exist
[01:45.144]Just wanna live 2020
[01:46.067]Ain't that sh*t
[01:47.142]Locked in my room when l'm bout to go bad, shit
[01:49.637]I wish I could say it to light
[01:51.286]Age 17, thought I wanted to die
[01:52.837]ButI cannot lie
[01:53.714]Even when I do try to work
[01:55.016]From my heart to the end of my life
[01:59.076]Work from my heart to the end of my life
[02:02.944]Work from my heart to the end of my life
[02:05.355]I'm breaking down (breaking down)
[02:08.981]Can't figure out (can't figure out)
[02:14.194]Can't take away the pain
[02:18.206]l'm borderline insane